Monday, January 24, 2011

so this girl has been harassing me since I was 18-years-old and all i keep thinking about is Conan.

aka I'm almost 21 and I still have a bully.
Since I watched, and cried to, Conan's farewell speech [] on the Tonight Show over a year ago, I feel like his wisdom is applicable to so many situations. I question where/if my heart belongs to and if my beliefs coincide with any religion but what I do know is this: I truly believe in karma and that what we put into this world, that energy, will ultimately come back to us. (which is really a foundational philosophy for many religions but let's not get too deep.)
And so I mentor a second grade girl who is also currently dealing with a bully and I was wondering how I could possible tell this small child that she will grow up and everything will be okay, when I myself am still being belittled as a grown adult? And aside from wanting to get angry/be a victim and cry/I don't know, honestly hurt her (my dad didn't put me through six years of karate for nothing), I want to ask this bully if she realizes she is acting like a 7 year old child. I want to know if she takes pleasure in being a bitch (don't answer that, I'm sure you do and it's lame and it's pathetic). But I don't take such pleasure. And I'm not sure if I ever could.
I don't even know where I'm getting with this but to my sweet beautiful little friend Ella, be kind. Always always choose kindness.


  1. AUBS!!!

    First, yay mentorship! Gah, you're so amazing!!! <3

    And second, are we talking internal bully or real world bully? Because that's unacceptable. :(

  2. Thank you! It's such a blast! love her.

    Unfortunately, real world bully. I'll have to tell you all about it soon. It's so frustrating. :/