She told me that I need to find what makes me happy, what makes me calm and stick at it. That I need to manually remind myself that i'm doing "such and such" to make myself better. I came up with this list:
I cleaned a fucking lot today and it felt really nice. Like somehow getting rid of clothes was like cleansing my soul or nerves or something. But anyway, I wanted to simplify my life in 2011. This summer I'm actually gonna do it.
Also, we were in LA yesterday and it was pretty perfect. I was with my best friends and didn't feel like I was going to die for the first time in a couple weeks.
p.s. How soon is too soon to start packing for a trip? 57 days and I'm excited.